| U of I was pretty straight.
Met some ol' friends and met a lot of cool new people.
This trip made me want to come out to U of I more often than I have.
I should make a trip out to ISU and Case =P
Thanks Lisa for bein' my ride.
I've been contemplating for a long time to make a new xanga.
I often wonder if my xanga username discourages people, and it does represent an old life I used to live and I bet not too many people know it was an ol' AOL sn.
Gosh, this xanga has had so many memories and so many good entries.
Lol, it'd be so hard to let this xanga go.
I can't believe I've grown so attached to an online journal.
Leave some feedback, aye?
www.xanga.com/Mr_ARR0GANT
Yeah new xanga. If you don't like it... Lol then I dunno! I'll stick to this one
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| U of I this weekend?
Still in need of a place to stay
I keep getting a bad feeling about it, but we'll just see?
5 page paper done with. I hate English.
Bill Hicks is not a funny guy. Long live Richard Pryor
Must study for two exams this Friday and quiz.
Intro to Logic is a gay class.
Why make things harder for yourself is the horseshoe?
Use the freakin' wedge!
::sighs:: I just have a knack for picking bad classes
Praise God for having a bus coming when I rolled out of bed and walked out the door.
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| Cutting the Strings by Me
As time goes on
I get this feeling that there's no point
Of even holding onto you
I can't erase the scars you given me
I've realized you're not what I need
Chorus:
So I'm cutting the strings
That holds us together
I'm the cutting the strings
To replace you with someone better
I'm the cutting the strings...
You lied and tried to create an illusion
That we would really be friends
I saw right through the deceit
I told myself I wouldn't let that happen again
I gave you another chance
But a month went past
You never tried to keep in touch
Because I was just the past
Chorus 2x
Bridge:
I have to let my heart heal
It's time to say good bye
I really hoped it wasn't the end of the line
But I'm cutting the strings
That holds us together
I'm the cutting the strings
To replace you with someone better
I'm the cutting the strings
And maybe one day there'll be
Another chance for you and me
To be friends
Or whatever happens (whatever happens)
Chorus
Sorry, I'm cutting the strings...
P.S. Wow, I wrote this in 10 minutes lol
You Are Sunshine
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Soothing and calm
You are often held up by others as the ideal
But too much of you, and they'll get burned
You are best known for: your warmth
Your dominant state: connecting
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| Once again I find myself with a lot to get off my chest. I guess the
main idea of this entry will be these 2 lines of the Lord's Prayer.
"Forgive me for my trespasses
And those who trespass against me,"
I say the Lord's Prayer every night and those are
the 2 lines I think about daily. It makes me remember all the wrong
I've done and all the wrong that's been done to me. Lol, it's a lot of
wrong done overall. I guess it's the baggage that comes with knowing a
lot of people. You're gonna get good spotlight and negative spotlight.
Right now of course the negative spotlight is what I've been thinking
about. It's crazy how people who don't even know you can run their
mouths about you. You never really know what's bein' said when you're
not there. Why is this? It's because people don't have the guts to say this stuff when you're around.
Some friends have told me they hear some things, but don't say
anything, because I'll confront the person(s). I've been seein' this a
lot lately and the fake smiles are proof of it.
I think about the people who said they hate people who talk shit, but
really they were one's doin' it as well. For example this one girl who
used to be my friend said that and what does she do after we stopped
bein' friends... She talks shit about me and makes up stuff about me. I
was totally surprised, but I kind of saw that side of her in her.
Pretty on the outside and rotten on the inside. Why did we stop bein' friends?
It actually kind of built up. She started to see a White guy and for
those who don't know I don't approve of interracial dating. I respect
it, but I don't approve. 2 similar, yet totally different things. So I
see her at the a city festival and guess what? I open my arms to her to
hug her, but she just stares at me and leaves me hanging. I find out
later it's because her bf is a jealous guy and she put in her xanga
entry that I gave her hug, but she didn't want me to. I was like what
the freak, I never gave you a hug, I opened my arms for a hug, but you
left me hanging. It really pissed me off that she was manipulating a
situation to make herself seem like a victim and me a bad guy. I was
like ok, I'll let that go and I called once a week just to keep in
touch, but guess what she wouldn't call back sometimes and you know
what her response was... "You're not my boyfriend I don't have to call
you back," and it was like where is this aggression coming from? It was
kind of funny earlier when she made a challenge to me that I couldn't
take her away from her boyfriend. I was up for it just because she
challenged me, but she backed away because I was seein' someone else (I
was in my player stage).
Another girl, pretty on the outside, but rotten on the inside. She
called me one day and I had fallen asleep and missed her call. I called
her back, but the guy she was seein' was on the other line. He got mad
at her, because she was talkin' to me so she told him a bogus ass story
about how I call her every day and I was totally blown away by this
bullshit. This girl was supposed to be my friend and she was sayin'
this kind of crap. The only times I ever called her were at church
tournaments and we all know those don't happen that often. Again the
person was makin' sure they seemed like the victim and myself as the bad guy.
Then there are times when people take things the wrong way. The quote,
"Actions speak louder than words," is so full of shiiiiiiieeeeeeet.
Lol, seriously, actions do speak louder than words, but intentions speak louder and more truthful than actions.
Many people don't realize this and it drives me crazy. The reason for
this mentality is that there's this idea most humans have of, "The end
more than justifies the means." This was an analyzation I explained to
my friend, but good intentions can only do so much =(
Lol, darnit! There's so much more to be said. Ah whatever! Forgive, forgive, and forgive
P.S. I see a lot of online people around who know they see me too, but
don't say hi, 'cause they're shy. I'm shy too, but screw it Imma just
start saying hi.
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